Do the grammar checking!

I've been very depressed today, very emotional. Seriously!!!!!

I said a lot "not nice" words way more than usual today, you know like ( SH*T, F#%&, GFY, ASSHO*E, ..)

Also, I cried a lot when I think of something today, which I normally would only feel confused, but could still manage not thinking about it too deeply.

I wanted to escape to somewhere where nobody could find me, where there is no internet, no cell phone, no Facebook, no Instagram.

Tears just rolled down on my cheek without my permission, even when I was just zoning out.

Due to these unsteady moodS, I did something very stupid and that was totally not me.

>> lesson here: just tide yourself up, don't do anything when you are down. The only thing you can do is call your friends!

Well, sad day has highlight too. when I was writing journal earlier this evening about how I feel today in "english", and I noticed that I was checking if my grammar is correct!!!!

what the F...

I told myself why the hell I need to care about the fucking grammar at this moment!!!!!!

whyyyyyy?

However, grammar checking obviously switched my mood.

Well, GOODNIGHT <3

Bagel with Cream Cheese? YEAH!

Finally spring is here in New York city.

<< warning>> this is my first blog in over three years and its written in english..lol

I don't have specific plans lined up for today except rehearsal and a documentary movie night about some trumpet jazz musicians. So after rehearsing, I met up with a lovely friend in Bryan park having a chat exposing ourselves in the sunshine and some winds, which is like hot and cold mixing feeling, pretty much like what I've been experiencing lately. However, nature element is always good for you, as along as you don't get cold...if you know what I'm talking about.

Anyways, after a awhile, we decided to grab some food, and we ended up at Trader Joes..lol, you know when it comes to eat in new york city, its a pretty difficult situation for me sometimes, because you are not that hungry to eat the whole dish at the moment, but yogurt or banana are not enough for you either...well..

OKAY, so the highlight of today is that I got some bagels form Trader Joes where is my favorite market, and of course I got my favorite cinnamon raisin bagel. We plan to get some butter or cream cheese at a deli or some bagel shops, then go to the high line in Chelsea. We found a deli on our way there, we walked in and I asked them if they sell cream cheese itself, I would like to buy just a little bit, and the deli guy told me yeah, we do, let me check, one second ok?

then when he came out, he gave me a little container with cream cheese, like the one you usually see for the sauce if you order take out, and when I asked how much is it? then the deli guy said: oh, its' fine, its freeeeeee. wow, I know its hard to count how much is it, because its just a little bit. YEP, this little tiny thing made our day even more amazing. thank you deli guy!

There are just so many little beautiful things happen in your life everyday if you pay attention to it, terrible things too I know, which I have had many, lol... But, right now is all about happiness. Apparently we are so satisfied (if you happened to see 2 people with the most beautiful smiles walking across 18th and broadway in chelsea area, then that's us..lol)and heading to the old rail track in high line.

bagel and cream cheese.

peanut butter sandwich.

tap dance on the bench.

sharing childhood experience.

Even more, we also know that Chet Baker never practiced!!!!! what??? cmon dude!!